Friday, February 29, 2008

At the end of the day.

Okay so it's Friday of mid-winter break and I gotta be honest I'm pulling my hair out over here. I cannot wait until 5:15 when Johnny walks in the door and I walk out (for girls night out, of course)! Geesh...what did you guys think I meant, hee hee. Anyway, is this just me or do other Moms feel the same way? I cannot handle the four of them at one time all cooped up in this tiny little three bedroom ranch. They have oodles and oodles of toys, more than any children really need. I mean seriously, there's a TV in every room hooked to some sort of game system from game cube to wii to a v-smile, not to mention, the multiple handhelds in this house. We got coloring books, dolls, build-a-bear, i-pods, reading books, art supplies, more boardgames than my closets can hold and yet... they're bored. Huh, something is so wrong here. The problem is, I'm tired, overwhelmed, out of energy, and just plain out of ambition right now. How do we as parents go through our own issues without burdening our children with them. I know at least once a day I wonder what my kids will remember about their life. Will they remember that Mom yelled all the time or have I emotionally scared them in some way or another? Will they sit in they're life groups as adults and talk about how messed up there childhood was? Man, I sure hope not. I know there are so many things in my childhood that I thought were all about me only to realize now that I had nothing to do with it. my parents were going through their won stuff at the time. Johnny and I were talking the other day and he said something that, first made me remember why I love him so much, and second made me realign my thinking about the kids! He said, "At the end of the day, when I think about what I have taught my children and what they will have as adults, only one thing matters. I don't care if they end up poor, I don't care if they are alone...(you get the point)All that matters is that they know the Lord and that their walk with him is the most important part of their lives." That is so true, at the end of each night that is the only thing that matters! Lord, this is where you come in, mold me and shape me to be more like you. May I be a radiant light of you throughout my tiny little three bedroom ranch so that my children will know why it is so important to know and love you! Just some of my thoughts for today.

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